2019 has been a whirlwind of a year.
So much has shaped me, and I've grown exponentially as a human being.
Every year, I take some time to plan out my goals for the next year, but this year I decided to reflect first on what I'm taking with me into 2020.
I learned how to be vulnerable, in a really real way.
Being in the same space as my fiance (AH!), there isn’t much space to let things fester. If something doesn’t vibe right, it has to be aired out immediately. That hasn’t been easy, and it’s been a rocky learning, but I’m working through it.
I learned how to talk through my emotions instead of bottling them up.
Holding onto those emotions wasn’t serving me, and expressing when something doesn’t vibe with me has been really eye opening, It isn’t just expressing emotion, but digging deeper into why those emotions come up.
I learned how to fuel my body, and how to move in a way that feels good for me.
I lost and regained my passion for fitness, and I found freedom in the way to fuel myself. I learned to let go of some structure to actually enjoy my time. I learned that it’s okay to be hungry, and it’s okay to not hit target numbers every single day.
I learned to let go of "should."
Society tells us constantly how we should look, feel, and act. Even knowing this, it’s easy to get wrapped up in the constant berating messages that are being shoved in my face. I took a deep look this year into what values I wanted to align with, and how that would look in my life.
I learned how to differentiate between urgent and important.
Running a business and working on being the best coach, teammate, and partner I can be has been the most rewarding work I’ve done this year. What helped? Learning the difference between things that needed to be done right away, and the things that needed to be done soon. I sometimes get too wrapped up thinking everything is urgent, when really some things can get done on a longer timeline, which is hella less stressful.
I learned that everything worth having takes a lot of work.
This came later this year. I looked back on everything that is important to me- my health, my education, my family, and my passion. None of the things within these areas came without work- and a lot of discomfort. That work brought me so much reward in joy, love, and confidence that I wouldn’t trade it for anything.
Most importantly, I learned that I want that work because I want what I put into this world to matter.
Everything that I do in 2020 will have intention. My intention for 2020 is connection- and i have a newfound understanding of what that means, what it entails, and what it brings. I can’t wait to work my ass off this year.
Here's to another year of learning, growing, and connecting.
Happy New Year, my friends.
Thank you for coming along on this journey this far, and I'm stoked for what we'll do in 2020!